I am on day two in a row of being off from work due to migraines, which feels like I’m cheating somehow despite the fact that it’s unpleasant because I could, technically, push through once I’ve had my meds and work. I tested my one rep maxes for my lifts yesterday and hit all my goals—160 lbs bench, 230 lbs squat, 235 lbs deadlift. There was another horrifying shooting and a bunch of children are dead. Being alive right now feels like a series of completely disconnected events that are just all happening at the same time.