I have spent the last 24 hours so stressed that I can feel it in my scalp, which is a very weird way to be aware of one’s own body. I worry sometimes that part of why I like working in the startup end of tech is that it gives me an excuse to care too much about my job as a place to route my ambient anxiety, which would be weird in other contexts and is unhealthy in this one. Tech shouldn’t be an identity job (identity jobs like teaching and nursing arguably shouldn’t be identity jobs) but it is, at least for me and I think for a lot of people, and it is probably not good for me.
Anyway all of that is to say that I’ve spent today tired and anxious and wanting to crawl into bed and it is all very dumb and absolutely being exacerbated by other objectively good but also stressful things going on in my life, and also honestly probably the second iced coffee I had today, which really ratcheted that whole emotional soup the fuck UP another degree or so. (I should have just eaten the sweetened condensed milk off the spoon like I really wanted to, but that felt sad.)
LA is a little bit more open than it was but I still don’t fully know what to do with that. What did I use to do during the week? I was home, then, right? Probably doing something other than curling up in a ball and watching Tiktok/looking at bathroom tile listings at Home Depot, but you know, the same general location?
A small victory of the day is that Tiktok has finally revealed unto me weird roadside attraction tok, and now I’m daydreaming about taking a trip to the next theme motel that’s available to me. I want to get high in a heart-shaped tub and take photos with a novelty Bigfoot statue, you know?
Shit to read
The gross viral food videos have been unexpectedly worse through the introduction of stage magic to the scene.
It’s been very cool to see the local public health institution of my childhood destroy a lot of its credibility this year and least.
Today in “yeah in retrospect this was bad”.
I found this Lil Nas X interview completely charming.
This piece on the birthrate and how dumbshit so much of the framing around its drop is is really good.
Myspace Tom: the only tech executive who has made good choices.
Shit to eat
Buy a cauliflower.
Forget that cauliflower in the fridge for three weeks.
Take it out. Salvage what you can by cutting off the rotten bits.
Break the remainder into florets, toss in a bowl, cover in olive oil and the good seasoning mix and salt.
Bake at 400 for 25 minutes, tossing halfway through.
At the same time, make hummus. I made it by putting a can of drained chickpeas, the juice of a lemon, a handful of parsley, some olive oil, and some salt in a food processor. You may make it differently.
When the cauliflower is done, char some tortillas.
Cover one side of the tortillas in hummus.
Put cauliflower on top of that.
And a slice of avocado on top of that.
And some pickled red onions if you think far enough ahead to do that, but I did not.
Eat your tacos on the couch at 9pm and enjoy.
Shit to watch
Season 3 of Shrill.
Shit to buy
This tile. For me.